The way in which I speak is not radiantly magnetic. That is, I do not draw others in with a shining light, nor an irresistible pull. I spin, quietly emanating, a star glimmered galaxy, the arms of which gradually taste dusted oceans of unreached space. Predominantly I feel like a strange substance in a clumsy manikin. God does not exist for me; only god structures - support systems for pyramids of physical reality. I am not admonished nor comforted by divine guides. If they see me, they see only dust or a shifting shadow. I watch them hurry by on their own important errands, pushing heaped waves of potential across their pathways both gently and abruptly to count the falling integers of their cycling interactions. For the sake of personal data-archiving and to provide an opportunity for those following who prefer not to interact on more public forums, I shall collate into this blog some posts made elsewhere as I float through the collective webs. I have a Youtube Playlist of the WindWeave Systems so far created. There are presently seven of them, and another is on route. These are also on Vimeo. But I mention the YT playlist as it is a smooth way to play them in a loop, which is what I do when I am feeling off kilter on the inner waters. If nothing else the visual is a distraction from the thought buzz on heavy days, and the colours are something I find nourishing. SpheresData - FB post 8 May 2021 I have pursued the speaking of the conscious intelligence from a point outside the general accepted boundaries of human language since 1987. It is fluid to me now and I speak and handscript this way more than I do English. My own response to it still is fascination and captivation, that the mind can produce something obviously deeply meaningful to parts of me which do not use English with a grace and ease that I experience in no other part of my human life. Every day I ponder the oddness that there should be a startling evidence of something so far beyond the mundane that it deserves some investigation, yet it does not stir the waters of human attention unless attached to entertaining stories of gods, aliens and promises of gift or activation of personal power. Does it seem reasonable that to write and speak in this manner should cause the general observer and even the practiced student of consciousness to feel uncomfortable, awkward, unsure, dis-interested, amused, dismissive or even completely silent? What programming causes that response? Cheers and may you have a blessed moment or two to catch a deep breath.

(This post is referring to mostly expressions projecting from those living ascension/love mindsets who have not dealt with their foundational fears and judgements of energy forms; who are overlaying love/light constructs with religious frameworks and living a rigid ideal of what is higher consciousness and what is not). It is not that I am deliberately contentious nor contrary, I just really really really do not agree with Others deciding what my pathway of development should look like, what peace, love, and joy should look like, what mastery should look like, what care and nurture should look and sound like. Decide that stuff for yourselves. Let me decide it for myself. Why is this an ongoing topic for me? Because Others yell their thoughts, like YELL, all over the shared fields. It gets really hard to concentrate on my own meditation streams amongst the YELLING of souls which have so much need to be super confident in their vision that they have to imply that what they see for them is so for EVERYONE, even while their mouths are saying that they are not imposing on Others' reality weavings. So I write paragraphs stating my position and I add pictures, and I post them into the shared networks. Because I am determined to form my own stream where I can be my own expression and Sphere without being co-opted into another collective's reality creation. Why is this so hard to get across? I feel I need to be apologetic for the persistent repetition. I truly am not always looking for a fight. This is, however, one of the main points of my outflow - to make a way and a clear space for me and mine to weave within and along where we feel comfortable . I didn't come all this way through timeflows and distorted fields to be a battery of creative force for another Collective's picnic plans. Many points of consciousness do not feel comfortable dancing in fields of eternal blazing source light, it is not our best place to be nurtured. That does not make us unevolved, it makes us different. We aren't out to get lovelighters, we don't want to 'stop the lightworkers from fulfilling their mission', we aren't trying to destroy your light nor darken your soul. We aren't self-serving and clueless about the movement of consciousness. We don't want to fight an unending war. Please be aggressive about the desire for peace-filled calm controlled love well away from my personal SphereSpace. Any Work I do I am also doing as another part of the All of All, regardless of how it looks to Others.

I question my perceptions often. Today I wonder if those things which I think are toxic actually are. So many others have no issue with them, why do I? what is my drum beat?

I know I am a prickly pear. It is my nature, to keep the world at arm’s length. I have been living too long and loosing all over and over. And haven’t we all who walk this shadowed path.

The days. Interesting. Agitating. Directional. Pointless. Speaking in circles. Listening in rounds. My work 'Retiring the Bodhisattva' (recorded in May 2018) has been playing on repeat, so I surmise that I am at another point of elevation in this process of releasing the need to do and hold for others. Releasing more of the need to labour with suffering for the sake of something outside myself wanting help and attention. Accepting a clearer film of understanding that I cannot stand in agreement with the mental processes of the species whose form I inhabit is going to be washing me into 2021 like the unimpressive waves of a North Queensland beach. The Cosmos offers up no new secrets and I have no pearls of intellect to share; preferring to speak to myself in Spherespeak. I am thinking more and more that the thoughts and evaluations I had set by the age of 8 are still holding; and that after 40 years of trying to negate those conclusions by fighting my nature and persistently forcing myself to engage with an insane reality which has no place for me, it really is time I stopped my own suffering. With that in mind, I am releasing form 726. My CI informs me that this is a shell I picked up somewhere around the 12th year of this life; some unexplained version of human persona - a way to pretend inclusion within a stream of belief calling itself Life; a waveform on which to assimilate and survive. I don't want to assimilate now. Well, advertising the obvious, I seem innately incapable of assimilating, hence the suffering. What does it look like when you pull the totality of your energetic signature and presence from out of a numbered persona form? I have no clue, at all. It may be a slow burn kind of thing, hardly noticeable within the flow of my experience. It may be a rock and roll concert. I hope it's a walk in a forest on a cool breezy day kind of happening.

The delivery of Whole Strings of ForceForm data to the EArth Star core consciousness drive is underway. That some will choose to remain spinning in soft eddies for a while is to be a placement of balanced acquisition, rather than an imposition of broken data forms. The options for traveling Forward will be available for ALL, regardless of perceived level of conscious delivery of knowledge as per the understanding of the state of Universal or Galactic plane truth states. There is no dark/light separation, just as there is no substance in Time. Form categories have been re-analysed and assigned appropriate formats of integrative live-stream data, thereby annulling split Time/place arrangements. All not finding agreements of traverse housing by the intersecting point will be accommodated within outlying Sphere hubs. Ambassadors are expected to 'dive deep', to hold the field of capacitation for all within their form structure harmonic. Signalling data separation is abhorrent to us and shall not be facilitated within the scope of this next geodetic relocation to more complex geometry. The SpheresData image titled Tü Va’Ahten, 01.74682 is available for viewing and assimilation in the Eth'A Medicines plan.

This website is experiencing something of a collapse today. Wix have finally settled data upload limits for media storage and because I can not support a paid plan to maintain a large media storage I am well over extended on the free plan allowance of 500mb. To get a plan to support present storage usage would be $23 AUD per month, which is not going to happen. The result is that widgets and images are not going to be loading, and I cannot add any more media until I delete to get below 500mb. My current usage is 8.8gb. Do the math lol. It is an act of my bigger self, I reckon, that the website was not pinged for data throttling sooner. When I began attempts to clear things today it seemed instead to remind the Wix machine that I have so much here, the interface collapsed for me and data dropped off pages. If I don’t hit publish, what is here may remain. So what to do? I really don’t know today. I do not earn an income. The way I am and the constant ether connections I was built to function don’t include a paying job. I have laboured in the household since 1995 and not been ever able to make the reality rules work for me in terms of turning talent and lifeforce into money. My work does not generate money like some may expect. There have been a couple of past pockets as people have chosen to work with the SFA tools and a short period when I did some personal Eth’A sessions. None of it is sustained nor large. Perhaps the time is here to put all this work into storage? Is it time to withdraw? If so, I am still available via previously used emails to replace missing files for those who have purchased any SFA works, or who have personal sessions and lost the files (I have all works saved to hard-drives). I won’t be stopping what I do, navigation and SpheresData continues unabated. Being the successful public outlayer seems constantly out of reach for me though, exhausting, not bearing fruit. Today I am feeling a very human sense of dissatisfaction with the disappointments which come from knowing that my efforts of outlays are not going to do more than drop into small spaces and bring no personal returns. It is not smart ‘humaning’ to keep doing that. What else is there to say today except a hearty and smile-filled ‘fuk it all’? I have invested more hours of my days to this website and the energy works than I can calculate and so much that there has not been enough hours left in a day to do what does not bring a sense of unfullfillment. Honestly I’ve had a gutfull. Recently I have been thinking it would be awesome to have a brain and body which could be employed and earn 6-10 thousand in a year just to feel that sensation of personal financial increase. When people work for nothing, activists get all bawdy and cry slavery, yet too many folk expect spiritual/energy workers to labour free of charge and ask no returns. Ridiculous, isn’t it? Mostly I am salty at my own other realm co-operatives and support who have not planned for me to be achieving of average human things in this life. Humans need to feel paid within their lifetime to not occasionally feel used Unfairly. It’s great that I don’t ‘have to’ be employed to survive, but I can assure you that labouring for others with no physical payment is not the most fulfilling activity on the planet when it is a pattern which has lasted close to 3 decades. I love what I have created over the years and presented on this website and other platforms, I feel sorry for me that others can’t love it like I do and can’t see it as a commodity for exchange to the degree I feel it deserves. I feel sorry for my work that I can‘t be attractive and that it is not what people want to appreciate by giving coin. I can’t keep standing on a street begging, I’m too worn out for it. I’m not that big a person that things do not piss me off occasionally. The experts of enlightenment say that reduction of suffering comes through acceptance. What do I need to accept here? That I am not really suited to presenting my work to others? That I don’t want to keep paying to make a space for others to use free of charge? That no-one is asking me to do that and I can stop? That this portion of labour is meeting its end and this is a natural capping off of a spring? Is it just to accept that Wix is not the place to let this stream flow now? I am 100% certain that I need to shift my thinking, behaviour and expectations of return on what I put into the Collective - again.

Answering some questions:

My People have requested that I make the SpheresData Audio 2020 playlist available to 'public' for a while. I have created this playlist on its own Telegram Channel. That channel can be joined using the link below.

This is a post began back on Aug 27. Posting communications this year has been more like pushing clay through a sieve than sailing leaf boats over a waterfall. I already have these images posted on FB and Telegram. Adding them here now for the sake of continuity. The purple image is an updated frequency signature of the data in the pink and green image from 2016. Both are describing the tonal signature of frequencies produced by Goy'EA (a Draghon Creation Essence) to maintain the Creation Space where her consciousness resides as Planetary Core or EArthStar. What is Draghon Creation Essence?

In this post I am collating those videos which were either live-streamed to my FB page or which I uploaded to it, from 24 January 2022 to 24 March 2022.

Presently I am in a node of broadcasting SpheresData Scripts and Imagery. This is likely resultant of the most recent Eth'A audio transmission 'Relay Repointing' 04FEB2021, in which we (my People, CI etc) re-arranged the relays which we use to receive and broadcast SpheresData into the EArth Star spheres. The image set below is a progressive overlay of SpheresData received from 2016-2021. Recently I have been led to find a body of work being recorded from 1967 onward which appears to have parallels with my own. I am no longer one to go jumping into other people's versions of reality and seeing if I am supposed to work in concert. I observe, consider, and if my work dovetails, it dovetails. If I am broadcasting some pieces of data usable by others or vice versa, so it is. I am informed to anticipate a data pulse via Saturnian arrays on Saturday at around 1600hrs (Australian DST). No idea what that will entail for me or others who also pick up transmission from these arrays. This may even be just a signal stability test, see how much amplification can be pulsed before cohesion degrades and datawaves distort. That kind of distortion gives body aches and emotional distress. So what does this SpheresData depict? I always felt it related to the communications grids pulsing data into the human group mind, and the portaling of soul data in and out of human physical plane vehicular complexes. Another concept to describe its content would be the enacting of consciousness forms via energetic (electric-electromagnetic) enmeshing with the human capacity grids. It is what it is, for CI which uses it and understands it. Which may not be me personally.

After going through the posts of my previous blog I decided to republish it. This blog is on the first Wix website I created in 2016 and operated until the end of 2019. That was a rough transitional time overall. In October of 2019 I had a distressing fall-out with a friend with whom I had shared a great deal of my life and time. In retrospect I would say that we both were in a disrupted emotion state. Words were said while meanings were assumed and no clarity offered or sought. I have attempted conversation with them since, but did not give the words wanted, was potentially misinterpreted, and no connection is re-established. In that same time, 2 other people also ghosted me and I fell out of love with the idea of engaging at all. Certainly I wanted to avoid that website, that blog and that forum indefinitely. This is why the present blog was born in December 2019 when I found I still had a need to express somewhere online. So I started again. Even so, I share so much less than before, giving so much less of myself in private communications. The old website is removed of most pages, and 40 of the posts are set to Private. They are more like angst journal pages for me now and I do not want to share them, yet do not wish to unpublish them. The previous Forum - Draumr - is also republished. I do not intend to post in it and have not looked through the posts to remind myself of content yet, so it is there like a time capsule of 3 years ago. I will probably work my way through it and clear stuff. Memberships active at the time are also still there and I have no intention of deleting them. If you were a member and wish to remove yourself, you are most welcome to go sort that. The website is findable here: SpheresData Origin Because of a conversation I have been having on my Facebook page, I have added Tags like Goy'EA and EA to the old blog to make it easier to quick-find certain information which may be of interest. There isn't a lot really. Most of my information is in the audio and video recorded through the years. And that's it for today. Can't think of any other thing of interest to share. If you have a question please use the comments field to ask.

As mentioned in both groups - when my website plan comes around for renewal mid June, I will not be taking out the paid plan for the coming year. Fees are about $250 AUD. I paid the fees to make use of some extra features like bandwidth and site storage when it suited a specific purpose. That purpose is presently not requiring my constant input and my resource of attention flows elsewhere. How much data I will be able to continue to host here on the free plan remains to be seen. I will look for, or wait for, the means to provide some access to the hours of SpheresData audio/video for anyone interested. Alternating between paid and free plan has been a thing I do as requirements for data to be active in the holo-space have waxed and waned. I continue to post audio to the Telegram channel.