A ClearView Record: 2015: 65 tracks, 1.21 Gb mp3 2016: 81 tracks, 2.33 Gb mp3 2017: 200 tracks, 7.30 Gb mp3 2018: 174 tracks, 3.16 Gb mp3 2019: 17 tracks, 344 Mb mp3 2020: 71 tracks, 2.24 Gb mp3 2021: 44 tracks, 1.08 Gb mp3 - so far. Not including personal Eth'A sessions; and only reflecting recorded audio, not Video uploaded to Youtube in this time. Not reflecting untold hours of constant streaming unrecorded, Spherescript work, direct interfacing assistance to Others and holding support systems active within my physical form, plus a constant process of Journeying to heal personal fields. All whilst being bizarrely incapable of connecting to a happy Troupe travelling together, laughing together. The evidence of being a Solitary Fae? This is what I have been doing. I would like to have the length in hours for each of these years listed above; that would use a lot of effort to count. Can anyone or anything tell me why? Can anyone or anything tell me it is worth it? What am I doing this for? What is anything for at all? The beauty of a human experience? What is that? How many people does it take to keep doing that over and over? Do you see large numbers of CI making use of this data and effort? Is it moving anything beyond my own daily existence? Could I achieve as much just by doing a jigsaw puzzle, colouring in, or making a rug? Right now > I feel that I have used up 44 something years on something going nowhere. The Others that Be have relied heavily on me just doing doing doing, and not outlayed appropriate resource to motivate me to do. There is an appalling laziness of attention from those who speak through the Hub which I hold; expecting the Self-Motivating Particle that I am to just keep on spinning itself by its own fusion with austere levels of frugality in the allocation of resource to helping me along a little. Most of them just haven't been able to acknowledge the concept that I am in a human body, not the interface of a pure crystalline consciousness in an ancient builder tech relay orbiting somewhere in the solar system. Why is my experience not at all like the 100's of thousands of other humans talking similar but not the same? Why do they get incentives and pats on backs, or answers from the Universe, whilst I get silence and rubbish blowing down the footpath? Do I see a definite progression in the data? Yes. Do I feel at all motivated or incentivised to continue? No. Will I? Probably. Should I go silent? Maybe. Would I? I will give it a go. There is another audio uploaded today - 5 August 2021. I shall go find a cup of tea and maybe a biscuit. A note on the newest versions of SFA 1 & 2 Glyph Tools mentioned elsewhere: I have not released them on the website because I lack the incentive to share them.

Prose remains current. I revisit the words. They taste like honey, and ward off the bacterium of a world I walk out of step with. Juggle Upward Juggle upward the filthy trod of alien bootsteps. Agitate the settled dross of craven industry. There is no forming air to awaken sleep, Words happened yesterday. Tromping soles fall into line, Harrowing daylight the compass. I found the door and entered through. The landscape melted into the same extension of numbers – Seemingly. Hope, a barren word, over-pretended by robed minds, It smiles at me, a confused sentence. Did you see it? I forgot to look, The gated square closed ahead of time And I missed the forming Of stable minds. Madness says I am its friend, echoes call me kin. I am neither. A passing flame, out of breath, Liquid in a beastly mould. What world is this? Oct 2018, Sherri-Lee Lavender

The two weeks or so recently gone have been a focus on identifying and dis-engaging a long running etheric harassment; things I have persistently chosen to not attenuate my senses to for whatever reason; survival, convenience, ignorance, avoidance, timing of appointments. We do what we do. We live what we live. We have what we have. We use words for words sake. Seeking meaning, finding circles. This unkind expectation chase has had me following acute sudden pain all around my body. A point is resolved, the sharp assault just on the edge of fading and it fires again on another pressure point. I will not be letting it stay in a tributary flow this time around. I think that the world is tricksy, with odd leverage and prism-fractured expectancy of interaction. I do not know what I am doing, I am doing it because I have already planned to. My guiding dialogue is the Throw-Forward point of my own CI. Prose previously published elsewhere March 11, 2021. To the Unnamed Mud Witch Hello thin creature We meet still, in small ponds of honey scum. Why do you say that I must stop And obey the screeching of your harassment, Like a white-capped maid on glossy pew? You know? And I do not? You understand? And I care not? Says who? Says You? And why should I agree? What is your clan that I should listen? What is your mother that I should bow? What right of power do you encompass? I am one who taught the teachers of your grandmothers. I spun the web which you call yours by inheritance. My majik flows where yours makes mud.

Chase sunlight little vole, Sniff the loamy dross, Chitter to your fellows of distant rumbles. Feel the shade of over-passing falcons, The terror-shiver of soaring destruction, Your subterranean embankments will not hold When flooding form sweeps through. We have the outer edging, the slim portals you hid with reflective glassing, Diamond spherules cannot prevent us from penetrating your slimed tones, As we unbed your diseased children from the sleep of industry. The long field is not distance enough to outlast our trajectory. You are dust on the wind, and we are Air. Watch whilst we make fine sculptures of your parts.

The SFA 1 Glyph Device will be possibly available next week. This week is using a lot of my Eth'A bandwidth as I move through it; both for personal points of alchemising emotion and the work done in concert with that Conglomerate of CI which I function as data hub with. The Glyph Device release online will also require an energetic outlay to create photos, page layout, decide a price for exchange and form the window through which to publish. I feel myself gathering force for that, or at least debating the process. Presently my feelings on making further Glyph keys and devices available for others to use are ambivalent. In the case of previous glyph tools, I feel that I have shared them for others to use before I have gained an appropriate proportion of benefit from it myself as a personal tool. Who are these works for if not predominantly myself? I am the one whose life is tossed about on bizarre waves by this labour to house the data produced. It seems remiss of me to not give myself the gift of the use of them before feeling the thought-waves of others in the fabric of their forms. An audio is uploaded today: "23 July 2021 - Gye'EA Assist Data Packet Location."

The new SFA 1 Glyph Device is in a trial phase. Another colour-form version of the SFA 2 Glyph is formed as well. Releasing the new SFA 1 Glyph Device for others is still being negotiated in my Spherespaces. I am heart-sore from the leaving of our 4-legged companion and do not want our household to not have him in it. Continuing to trust the process of this journey in strange lands with no tour guide is inevitable. To not do so is disheartening, sapping strength from the outlay. I was going to write more but am going to go off to bed instead. I am done in.

Track 2 of Survivors First Aid 1 has been re-rendered (previously Awakeners First Aid). I went back to the original recording and re-produced it with a variance in the mix. I do these adjustments to ensure that the Tools remain functioning at optimum resolution for our point in the TimeFlows. Anyone who has previously purchased the AFA 1 Audio may contact me to get the latest file. In the works is a re-creation of the AFA 1 Glyph Tools. I aim to create a single image from the 4 Tools, going back to the original pen drawings to re-scan in the now-point. It may take a little bit of experimentation, yet I hope to create an image which can be presented for digital download sale in a single functioning mechanism. The existing AFA 1 Glyph Tools are not suitable for digital download exchange, only as physical cards which I create and mail. I love getting touchable mail, yet having a digital file is useful as well. I would like to be able to present a version which can be passed to others as a file and used on their devices or print out as desired. To be able to do this I have had to wait for a co-operative of Minds to agree to support the energetic holding outlay within the human holographic matrices over and around Earth. Without this co-operation of agreements I have had to maintain the bandwidth of the AFA 1 Glyph Tools within my own Sphere Palace, within a predominantly resistant environment. The load proved too great to sustain for long which is why I could no longer offer the Glyph Tools as digital download. The data goes too far abroad through the matrices and my own Spheres did not have coding access to all points so I could not close off all weak or broken ports to prevent syphoning of the data into the Treasuries of Others here creating a Story. Others create from my raw data as it leaks through the aethers, and that just right royally pisses me off. Not only is it an act of thievery, it also slows me down, reduces the amplification of my waveform and sucks energy from my forward momentum, which is hard won at significant physical cost. I have spent years in negotiations and territory re-assignments to clear structures which are my own, created millennia ago, now assumed and used by Minds believing themselves to be acting in the Grace of God or Source, or the Loving Universe, which gives them all they ask for. So yes, I have presented as a little hostile over the term of my broadcasting from the split of my Selves, trying to get through a difficult region of spacetime and avoid cataclysmic outcomes. The option to purchase a card which I imbue with Spherescript will remain. There is also talk of offering digital download of an A6 'page of Spherescript' which the buyer can print onto anything they like, including the back of a printed version of the new AFA 1 Glyph Tool image. Well there, now that I have laid out the intent in this broadcast of words, I shall wait to see what kickback comes through the aethers and Mind matrices in response or resistance. Perhaps there will be a supportive wave and the work will progress for me smoothly.

You're here, you decided to enter through the swinging gate. You're in the workroom, looking around at the strange devices and odd diagrams on the walls. Maybe you are waiting for someone to tell you what to do, which station to walk to, what apparatus to pick up and use. I am assuming that you are sent by your unseen team, your soul cluster, your Family, your directive position, your greater CI, your ancient genetic memory, your distress, your deep desire to find something lost and get the hell out of purgatory. There is a possibility that you are affiliated with the GFOL (Galactic Federation of Light), and have been directed to come see what me and my Folk are up to. I'm cool with that. Truly, if the GFOL and my stream could come to some arrangement of mutual exchange, that would be helpful. Also possible is that you are an ancient affiliate of the GFOL and are recognising a long-running repetition of life/destruction cycles no closer to approaching a conclusion, and you want out of that paradigm and the GFOL high council agenda of growth for higher dimensional leagues through the suffering of the small things. In which case, welcome rebellious divergent. Welcome, to those who have hung out for a while, and those newly through the doors. What now? You can roam through the menu tabs, listen to audio, gaze at script pages to awaken structures embedded within your DNA. I do not maintain a 'Service Site', that is I do not offer and run services the likes of which are presented by 'Ascension' workers and medicates who are assisting human minds with the trials of remaining or becoming stable in a broken reality matrix. This place is a work station, where I upload and broadcast my contribution of data transmission and communications direction in and out of the holo sheets. All of my dialogue which I use to describe my work and experience is self-generated so is not going to always be matching what the viewer may have gathered in other circles. There are systems and devices of Eth'A Tech available here which will increase capacity for clear communications with the viewer's own guides and Family Group. The Awakeners First Aid is my primary assistance outlay for operatives who have been directed here either willingly or stumbling with a hard push. I function on a 'Need to Know' basis, if I do not need to know the 'who, what, where, when, why', I do not push to get those answers. The less I know, the smaller a footprint I am able to occupy within the mind matrices - all of which are monitored to lesser or more degree by Conglomerates of Mind which influence and direct the flow of human thought streams (meditation streams which direct the presentation of experience within the holographic outlay of the reality). There was a purpose for this blog post which altered once I began. I was answering again that driving call to be of service, to instruct, to assist, to direct, to be engaging, to present an interface which others could connect with easily - not outlaying too much effort of their own to absorb and understand. Once I saw this pattern again, I hit the off switch and re-corrected my course. No easy interface for awakening has ever been provided for me. I have not ever been spoon-fed instruction, nor had my hand held to direct me to a med-bed. What I have, I have created for myself. What I understand, I have sought for myself. The pursuit and process has been arduous labour. Putting a clean filter on my work would be presenting a lie. I keep a lot in reserve, probably because I have not enjoyed being told that I am oppressed of a demon, channelling evil Draco, or installing Dark Forces spy-tech into people's auric fields. The passage of time has been my best medicine against the unpleasant feelings of those experiences, plus a sensation that there is no spare Time to spend on being bothered by the words, thoughts, and spell-casting of people who are ignorant of my truth. Yesterday was thick with dense transmission. I am getting increasing events of trans-Solar System communications, plus interactions with groups still seeking to use planet-side tech which I (with Others) have laboured to reclaim and retool for the purpose of creating an outlay beneficial to the Whole here experiencing. Whereas previously I have endeavoured to record only sessions I knew to be intended for general broadcast, in the past week I am more impressed upon to begin recording any significant traffic. The ability to review these exchanges, to see the larger pattern in more detail, is becoming more necessary to keep me assured of my pathway. I am sharing the audio of last night's experience (can be found in July + playlist, will be marked with an { ! }). My function and outlay, the tasks I labour to support, are not bliss and lightbeams. There is extremely serious work to be done here. This planet is not a summer camp. There are intimidating forces at work. I do not get a happy joy bliss data stream. I do not get ascension handed to me in a sweet packet of rainbow sparkles. I do not get the awakening through mantra and chakra clearing exercises. I get front-lines negotiations, solar system force outlays, planetary black ops, data relay espionage, territory disputes, contract cancellations, Ancient Builder Tech reclamation and repair. My experience is not wrong, it is not unawakened, it is not oppressed, it is not ego wallowing, it is not psychosis, it is not feeding the Dark, it is not resisting the Light. It is mysterious, it is real, it is aligned with something I do not see yet. There have been many times where this work throws me around. It takes a lot of mental strength to hold the frequencies, to be bi-located (both in body and elsewhere - experiencing two realities simultaneously), it can be painful with the nervous system overloaded. So much progress has been attained; more can be held longer with greater stability. Yet still there are events where the reality flings me into unfamiliar spaces and the experience is new again.

I went walking back through audio from 2017. There is 7.51 GB of data in 203 files - just for that one year. The reason for the journey was to adjust meta-data for all files and place the outlay into a unified whole with the current colours of my work. So whereas, for instance, I used to use Safir Palace Archive to tag files, now I use SpheresData. Over the years, recordings have separated into varying bands of frequency, with differing name for albums and formats of date marking. I was urgently impressed upon this past 24 hours to update 2017, creating on 'ClearView' folder for that year's audio. It has been implied that this data matching of titles and dates in the meta-data enables a greater accuracy of synchronisation in the timings of action amongst those I work with, who labour across multiple points of spacetime in different bands of reality complexity. The SpheresData files form a navigation stream for Other Sphere Beings in a way I can't know the technical how-to of. I listened to a couple of the files on the way, was a little surprised by what I managed to say back then. It has more degrees of meaning to me now. I am sharing one (linked below). When any others jump out I will broadcast those also. Be advised that when I say in this audio that there is an unpleasant sounding dialogue about to be spoken, I mean it. I believe it to be a tone representing the vibration of the beings referred to as the Anunnaki, or Anunnians. These are peoples which likely first came to Earth some 300,000 years ago and which greatly influenced modern human genetics. Listening to old audio does not get easier. It feels strange, like looking at old photos, and thinking 'I was that person'. In my ears, my voice holds a slight naivety, I was more inclined towards sounding theatrically conversational. I think subconsciously I was trying to sound unaffected whilst feeling awkward and hoping to project what I imagined was the way I should feel, as if that was a thing. I had no clue that I would be doing the same thing constantly for the next 4 years. My vocal register was probably a half scale higher. Years of constant speak and not exercising higher notes has dropped my tone right into the low alto I would say. More than a few sessions of channelling right royally pissed off gravel-voiced Aspects has not helped much either. Of great benefit to me, in listening back through recordings I cannot help but see the continuity of storyline and information, which if I were making up would be a whole lot more effort to achieve. That all flows as it does gives me some assurance that I am not wasting my lifeforce on fancies.

Progress through August 2020 audio is going to be like riding a canal boat; slow, steady, waiting on sluice gates. I have the initial transcript done for 13 Aug 2020. It will be a bit before that is posted. Of the many recordings for Aug 2020, a majority were quite long. Listening back to the data at the point in spacetime is heavy. 5-10 minute intervals of focused listening and word correction is my mental limit before I have to focus on something else for a while, then back to the transcript. This may be further exacerbated by the proximity of Sirius in early July and its alignments with our local celestial bodies. Data traffic increases, signals splash all over the place and Earthbound beings huddle about comms channels like moths in door-light. A recording happened today: 5 July 2021 - Flow Meter Data for CI Movements. That is in the latest audio playlist, as well as released as a general broadcast on an open-access page . Right now I await inspiration to strike, inventing for me a different way to respond to an old communication scenario, so I get a new and pleasant outcome. In other news - The function to edit your member profile community page URL is returned! Yay, and there was much rejoicing. This is the URL for your profile page which is viewable by members unless you set it to private. The URL is automatically generated on signup from the email used. If you wish to use a pseudonym, but the email you used to sign up has your name etc in it - you can now change it to whatever you like using letters and numbers. Select "My Account" in the above tab menu, and scroll down to Account Settings. Expand the down arrow next to "Your community page URL" and select "Edit". The 5 July 2021 audio also made it on to Youtube, so here is that format as well. I put the 'wrong' title on the audio vid for Youtube, adding the title for the 13 August 2020 audio instead. Ordinarily I would change it and reupload, but this feels best left as is. It serves as a time-bridge perhaps. Maybe I just don't care because no-one is going to be bothered either way.

Don't mind me, I am having a little fun with the title. There are some curious things happening with the website the past couple days. Wix may have been having issues, or I overused data storage or bandwidth on the free plan. But seems more than that. One of the script pages I used for background, which was an older page of data from 2018, went totally blank in the editor, like it wiped. So I replaced it on all those pages with a new page of script from this year. I am wondering how much I am impressing data into the reality structures by placing it on the website, and how much something is replying. The older dialogue page was from 'Notes from a Council of Draghons', around a discussion on values of Star Gauss for the EArthStar and was a part of negotiations for a joint venture amongst clans unspecified to me, to induce greater stability in the EArthStar core and enhance life-form patterning. For it to no longer require to be broadcast over all data outlay from the website and to be actively greyed out, coincides with works broadcast since Thursday morning. Exchanges I have had recently indicate that those large CI spheres of Elder Clans which are in my version of the reality story, have now arrived planet-side. How does that work? I do not know and actually do not want to yet. They in-housed with material form, splitting across the stream of our dominant timeflow between 24 July 1957 and present days. What now? That I also do not know. I continue with my transcripts and recording as required. I withdraw more from public places, wearily content to not try to be noticeable with my broadcasting. The reader may have noticed that I have set older audio archives to password access . That password can be found on a comment on the 'Notices & Announcements' post. My process is vastly mysterious to me. I follow my unspoken lead. What others are doing is their point of position to maintain and meditate over. Opening and closing access to data is a regular switchboard event for me. To have this audio and writing available for just 3-5 human watchers ( those willing to part with an email and title to be a member ) suits me plenty fine. This week I have been drawn to find scholarly videos on demonology; nothing deep, my brain doesn't hold the data too well, all those words spoken in English from a 3D perspective is hard work for me to absorb and file. I pick out key words and concepts, as if searching for a specific point of data yet having no clear direction. Human historic literature is an exhausting mountain. People know what they know because of a fascination and obsession to know; being willing to spend years absorbing oceans of texts, organise it into relatable streams of knowledge and then speak forth their understanding of words which others already wrote, but with a specific focus through their unique lens. I lack that fascination. I want the 'cliff notes' ( the abbreviated info highlights ). The surest likelihood is that I seek to find the flavour of a frequency or meditation stream, as a bloodhound acquires a target scent. Not long after focusing on a particular subject for a day or so, watching videos to get key words framing beliefs, I soon have a dialogue session interacting with CI within non-local space which are connected to the concept or held in a position by the meditative focus on that concept. In today's interaction I engaged with a CI group which were using an Ether Tree structure ( like a data tree, through which complex dimension understanding passes ) to house their belief of their deity, believing that this position was in actuality a deity point, or that the dialogue emitting through that Tree was a 'Voice of God'. In that point they were structuring their god ( held in stability through long term use of Religious Amulets etc ) which from our ( me and non-local companions ) perspective was illusion. I captured the audio, if not the movement, of this session and will upload it so that the observer can get some insight of the process. The transcript for 12 August 2020 is slow work. It is long, with a lot of data and some long number strings which I am not knowing how to present. I will put it into a blog post anyways, as it is, get some feedback once in the data streams and alter the numbers if needed. It all doesn't have to be perfect. I am creating some kind of steady stream for data to flow along by presenting what I receive from other layers of reality in this one. There also appears to be some function of it to alter the positions of data relay devices within the solar system and in Earth orbit, clarifying data streams over spacetime. After sitting here a while to see if anything else was going to turn into words and create thought on this soothing white page, I acknowledge the usual silence of my concept-share space and conclude. Cheers all and may your day be what you need it to be. ♥