About a year and a quarter ago I started training my body to be more mobile and able. The years of intense energy work had broken down much of this body's strength and capacity; until I had reached a point of being almost completely sedentary (due to the intense pain of every movement), and had been alcohol dependant for about 4 years - possibly 5.
I stopped drinking any alcohol (vodka is my preference) in October 2018. I began regular movement training in about September 2018. It was that or loose a foot from the probable gout I had started to develop in my toes in the winter, and be totally seized up by the age of 50. The alcohol had gotten me from A to B, but it wasn't going to get me to C with both my feet. By movement training, I mean I coaxed my body from its position of immobile excruciating terror into bouncing mildly on a rebounder. That is all I did for weeks and then months. 3 1/2 minutes of what is called the 'health bounce' - where feet don't leave the mat - is all I could manage for a couple weeks I reckon.
At the same time as these choices I had finally made it to a doctor's room, had begun the 'mental health plan' thingo, and started on a beta-blocker to calm the electrical responses of my nerves to signals from the heart, to calm the intense 'tremors' I had been experiencing for years.
To stop drinking the vodka was actually very easy. I just stopped. The psychologist I had begun seeing asked me to not drink alcohol during the program she would be implementing, so that was that for me. As I knew it would be at some point. I am like that, I do a thing until it no longer serves its purpose and then I don't do it anymore. I had been having a full shot each evening for a while, then had been inclined to reduce to a half shot for a month or so prior to making it to the medical professionals, and then nothing. How my body reacted to that was all a pretty textbook response.
I can't say I felt immensely better for having stopped drinking. I didn't loose a heap of belly fat either. All of 2019 was a long long arduous march. Bounce bounce bounce. I bounced almost daily for more than a year. At the end of that I made it to 4 sessions of 11 minutes each in a day. Then it crashed. And bouncing became really difficult. Weird huh? About a month before that crash I had been prompted by intuition and Other info to purchase a stationary bike. I got the cheapest York Upright bike available, and started peddling.
Initially I peddled for a set time as I had with the bouncing, but that wasn't going to work for me. Time whilst bouncing on the one spot worked fine - I was building strength of Vibration. But time in 'movement' as manifested by cycling was too much, I could not handle the 'speed' of the space/time element whilst in this compromised body. So I went with 'energy' as the factor instead. I cycle to a particular number of Calories burned according to the equations used by the York bike.
So for more than a year I had been gradually increasing atomic vibration using the rebounder, and then having reached a set vibration capacity, I moved onto increasing movement in space/time with the cycling. For a while I would work with both, increasing bounce rate a little and then increasing Energy burn goal. Now it's just the cycling, and gradually gaining momentum. I feel that a bounce rate increase is on route and so the rebounder will come out again.
All of this for about 16 months before we made a move of household from one Aussie state to another. And now it makes a great deal of sense why I began this training. Our new locale is very different to the previous. There is a greater amount of physical load required to live here. We are in the largest city in Australia. So many people, I have no idea how I will get to the point of being able to drive in traffic. I also cart water daily to nurture the small garden beds which have been neglected for years.
We are on water restrictions, plus much of the state is on fire and it seems inappropriate to use the drinking water for gardens (even though some is allowed on level 2 restrictions), so to water the plants we set up a system to catch the rinse water from our washing, and cart that about the place. The temperatures have soared into the mid 40's celcius. The environment presently is quite harsh. Without that training since 2018 I would'a been stuffed. Now a bucket or watering can in each hand makes for a great weights workout.
Towards the end of last year I had made an etheric request for ways to incorporate more physical activity into daily life. I have not ever been a lover of 'exercise' - that regulated torment of sets and particular movements. Rebounders and stationary bikes were my limit. I said to the ethers that it would make more sense for me to just have more daily activities to complete, as part of everyday life. And guess what? I got just that. I ask for a bag of gold coins too but haven't seen it yet. This world doesn't work that way does it?
I do not know why I wrote all this here. It will do what it does and I leave it at that.
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