Not being able to join conversations on Spiritual things.

I don't know the contents of the books and have no mentor. How to enter the field of conversation on spiritual things?

I am going to pose this on my blog and Threads, completely separate from anything anyone else has said or is saying today, yesterday or even the day before. It is just something I have been thinking about when I think of why I don’t feel inclined to contribute to Threads discussing spiritual practice.

I have been thinking about how spiritual Threaders (applicable in any forum) appear to preference knowledge backed up by book learning or gained from book learning and discussions around proper practice of rituals (talking about pagan, wicca, animism or any of those subjects people speak about which I can’t speak to).

My spiritual communications and understanding came from direct mental transmission with those in spirit (or those other frequencies of reality humans usually can't see) and from the teachings filtering to my mind from my own remembered and stored knowledge – accessing my own higher spirit let’s call it.

I have read some things, gleaned an idea of recorded human practices, but am not able to absorb and apply that information – it does not stay in my working mind. Plus, if I am not able to establish an energetic/spiritual balance or rapport with the person who wrote the book, I just cannot stomach the taste of the words and don’t finish the book. I read more in earlier days of transitioning my corporeal being out of christianity, and I’ve gathered a working internal reference of human practices without dedicatedly studying the details and intense histories. I don’t have the brain-space, the spoons nor the use for the material to expend the energy to gather this information and store it permanently in my mind. It becomes the colour in the background not the working program.

Spirit speaks to me and we exchange like in a conversation. I do this without ritual. I get information and images and knowing on how to do what - relating specifically to me. Some times I go looking for other’s written or spoken data to see if things are a shared or common experience. This increases confidence in self-ability to ‘know’. All of my knowing of what can be trusted and what not trusted in terms of spirit communication and understanding came from sources outside of human impartation of accumulated knowledge. I have no mentor except my own greater Conscious Intelligence.

What this means is that there are minimal windows for me to add my thoughts to the conversations of others because those speaking have seemed more focused on proving and supporting their understandings according to known practices and are especially focused right now on supporting what is termed indigenous and fighting what is called colonialism. It is important for this era’s humans in their spiritual journey to have these conversations. They are not conversations on my path to have. I cannot speak to them. My own human heritage is 25% Irish, 12% Scottish, some Welsh and a bunch of British, with spatterings of Silesian German, Hungarian, Russian, Ashkenazi Jew, Oceania, Laos and things unknown. I have no clan and no human ancestor allegiance. I am trying to figure out how to be human and for the most part it is a confusing puddle of argument and agreement seemingly arbitrarily assigned, functioning on hidden clauses and imprinted beliefs.

When I see ‘you’ I see your spirit self, your spirit teams, the earthy ‘heaven’ they are residing within, their level of connection to lower or higher astral planes, their star affiliations, their spirit consortium associations, the belief story they are operating within. In all that I try to figure how to interact with your human mind data and how it is relevant to you on that day.

I ran out of cutlery for it.

I believe that there are so many more conversations to be had which remain in unspoken swirls because others like me cannot find the place to have an exchange not tethered by human inherited knowledge.