A Contactee

I have been observing and searching through online platforms for maybe 10 years for burgeoning understanding, true conscious communication, original lines of thought on the nature of being here in human body and elsewhere as non-local Conscious Intelligence. I have looked for places to enter open dialogue on modalities of contact, places not directed by minds filtering information according to their personal experience, which are able to draw into themselves truly NEW vibration.

Very probably those forums exist, but not in places I have so far been able to access, and not on the mass production line of digital communications made available to the social complexes of this planet's species possessing linguistic ability and opposable thumbs.

If I were to use a phrase to describe to myself what it is that I am looking for in the broadcasts of this species, it would be 'proof of life' (resonant to me). Is the pale colour of frequencies found due to a fear to emanate? Is that the reason why minds adhere to oft repeated ideologies and words pre-tested by best-selling authors? Or are minds programmed to emanate and process only within narrow bandwidths of sound?

What is the requirement yet to be met to increase this bandwidth?

I am not a scholar. I can't recite a half-dozen philosophers at the drop of a quill. I am an ordinary being who chose not to shove her intellect into the tight streams of higher education and academia in general. I used to read more. Then all those words lost their taste and appeal.

I am a 'contactee' in constant communication with Spheres not local. I have fit that into a life. What else is there to do?