The Invitation

I invite myself into the enfolding of my own life, into its joys, into its pressing labours.

I invite myself to celebrate with me, to laugh with me, to cry with me, to go on outrageous adventures with me, to sit quietly and do nothing with me.

I invite myself to speak to me the expressions I have criticized and ignored in myself, the voice of myself I have pushed away in pursuit of the smiles of others, and of their company.

I invite myself to be with me, to talk with me, to show me what I have not yet seen in me.

I invite myself to give to me unexpected ways to see and to think and to feel.

I invite me to not cut myself off from me and to not deny myself access to all that myself and I can be together.

---

It has been a pressing/wearying few days. This week is about creating pathways to think and feel independently of the group vortex of consciousness in a more manifest way.

This involves significant re-coding of the physical body. Yesterday the pressure moved in, the body feels extreme weight like being in a gravity well, it gets hard to breath. After a 'closet session', and then a having to lie down session later that day, I then experienced a 'loss of motor function' session.

This is where I am doing something like washing dishes, and then feel the disconnect of conscious force from the nervous motor systems of the body, and then I just can't move the body. I get enough fore-knowing to be able to ask my husband for an 'assisted drop'. He was home when normally he would still be away for work. These things are all co-ordinated, occuring when other physical assistance is available. And happened during a major fall of rain, which is clearing frequency build-up from the whole region at the same time as I am moving away from the Group Thought Vortex.

Who knows what will come next.