A Place Less Insane.

This living in physical life thing is a rough gig. It is a banquet of voices and choices - to hear and to make. Myself, I am in another breath of deciding my level of involvement in it. Deciding just how involved with the larger group I require to be to get done the tasks I think I'm here to do. Or rather, deciding the minimum level of overall interaction required which still enables me to complete tasks.

And then what of the tasks I feel I am here to do? Are these tasks really required? When a day dawns and I listen to the urgings and do a thing or two, do I actually require to or can I simply ignore ignore ignore, feel the discomfort of ignoring an energetic push, yet lay hold of others' beliefs that if you don't put your thoughts on a thing It does not operate in your life. From my observation, in the physical realm even if you ignore a windstorm and move out of town for the duration, that storm still messes up your yard and throws around the furniture you left lying out there, doesn't it?

So then, this option of ignoring a thing, not thinking of it so it wanders off somewhere else, that seems more likely to be applicable in less physical realms perhaps where thought or non-thought becomes reality more speedily. Seeing as I live in the physical realm whilst in this body, I guess it would be a good idea to not ignore the windstorm, unless I prefer my furniture tossed about of course. Ok, so it seems likely that there are tasks I have set for myself to undertake whilst here, going on the notion that the force of their presence can be felt like a strong wind in my physical life.

That established, what then of my methods? I am of the opinion that the whole of this creation space (both spiritual and physical) is stark raving mad, and run by a Mad King (or Queen depending on his/her fancy). This Mad Monarch is compartmentalized, schizophrenic, sociopathic, highly intelligent, very powerful, and now completely unaware of its state. That is, on any given day, it could be the boy scout saving kittens and the town bully drowning said kittens, and not know that it is both harassing itself and saving itself from itself.

But I was talking about my methods of completing tasks. Well, seeing as I view this creation and all in it as exhibiting the same qualities of the Mad King, being compartmentalized and often completely unaware of it's Harassing Self, I take on the form of the Mad Hatter at times to speak to and deal with the oblique actions of that hidden madness. This tends to bring the puzzlement of others who feel all things can be accomplished through calm oceans of clear emotional excavation and who may just believe that it is possible to see all our own thoughts and know exactly what all our own motivations are. Hard to see what you are designed to be blind to I think.

Now I come neatly back to my first statements of deciding levels of involvement with the wider group of peoples here experiencing life. When it comes to 'lightwork', being the mad hatter does not lend itself to popular garden parties or grand soirees, it better suits the messy insanity of senile old folk past the point of caring for social constraints, and does not win many associations.

On reflection of the words already spilled out, I wonder if the term I am seeking to determine is not 'involvement' but rather 'identification'. I hear this term used by folks advising others on how not to be bothered by the turmoil and pain in their lives.

For example: "Just don't identify with it. Don't view your life trouble as the small human. Draw back and view it as the still point of consciousness" or some such thing. That's all well and sometimes fruitful, yet my issue is that I can see that the 'still point of consciousness' creating here as spirit is stark raving mad as previously expressed.

So the mad nutter is telling the tortured body to chill out and view it from the non-identifying viewpoint of the consciousness not in body, where physical pain is irrelevant and they can't identify with it anyway. Or something like that.

Yet even so I think there is some merit in this non-identification thing and I am concluding that I am going to increase my lack of identifying with this creation space in its totality, because it's lunatic. In that way I can complete my tasks, using methods others find grossly unrefined, and not experience the emotional impediments which come with identifying with the response of the lunatic asylum I am performing them in.

At the end of some number of days those tasks will bear their own fruits and I can move on to a place less insane.